Waiting sucks...

I was never good with suspense.
It's made all the worse when you're literally waiting for a 50/50 situation that could result in one of your dreams coming true.

Having recently made the long list for a chapbook competition, I am now just waiting on a long list or an announcement on which books have won. If I win then I'l be offered a publishing contract and be assigned an editor. It'd be so wonderful to technically have my first publishing contract at the age of 21. I'm trying not to get my hopes up as I'm up against some very talented authors who have already been paving their way for some time but truth be told I can't stop thinking about it...